city of stars

Today (going into tomorrow) is my last shift at KGH. Its pretty crazy. This summer went by so fast, too fast really to be able to enjoy it and make the best of it. Of course now, its cold and gross outside all the time, as if signaling that I have once again missed the opportunity to really explore and have fun with my summer. I'm actually irrationally nervous about my last shift. It just feels lately like every time I leave with the knowledge that I have not done something truly regrettable or negligent, I am indebted to the gods. I guess that is the nature of an understaffed, overworked hospital, especially when you're a new grad. Its sad to say and sounds even more horrifying when you're not a nurse, but its true. I've randomly thought about calling in sick and become delirious with excitement, but Julian, my moral anchor/restraint has made me feel guilty about even considering it. I brought my laptop to the goat with some intention to work on my story but I haven...

I LOVE the new Stars Album. Anothe great album. Aaah, its so satisfying to have great new music to listen to. Its a lot more versatile than their other albums. The other albums perhaps are more like 'concept' albums. . .very focused sounding. Lyrically, I still think that this album falls under that description, but musically, very variable. Its refreshing because no song sounds like a 'B' song, all the songs just distinct and interesting. So, I gave KGH the slip which felt pretty AMAZING. After all the horrible political stuff that has happened with my floor I do not feel indebted to them in the least. In fact, it feels kind of cathartic to be able to tell them I'm done with them. I do feel terrible for the nurses on the floor, especially the ones that have been supportive because the understaffing is just ridiculous. I did feel guilty, but I have come to the point of acknowledging that there is a shortage everywhere, and I cannot be held responsible for that if I ...