20-20 in reverse

I met you the summer into the 2nd

I was trying out my new diet

driving a long the 401

foot barely reaching the pedal

you sang to me from a beat up CD

and made me feel philosophical

everything was so bright then

that it hurt my eyes to see

the beauty that surrounded me

and the beauty that escaped me

back then I didn't know anything but lonely

it felt right

rattling recycled thoughts through my head

saying them out loud just to feel heard

I knew how to handle things more softly then

soft eyes for my brothers

loose grip on those who wronged me

so comfortable floating, unbound

I was less afraid,

more classically sad

at least in memories

sometimes I feel as if my bones will fuse, my jaw will lock

with these tight-fitting worries and obligations

this inability

to embrace

the boundaries of my body

to get back would be to lose my way

there is only now

there is only what brought me